I write true crime, I never thought I’d be writing about myself playing the role of a real-life victim.
For those of you that don’t know me, I write in a lot of different genres. One science fiction universe I write novels in is called BattleTech. While this factors into this story, it is not the key component.
What follows is a story about lies, deceit, catfishing, defamation of character, extreme leftist politics, threats against my life, and outright character assassination. It is a story about the cancel culture, censorship, and standing up for your rights.
I am posting this to clear the air about a few things a person has been saying about me. I think as readers of my work, you deserve the complete story. So far it has been a one-sided affair. You deserve the full truth. I have been silent on this matter far too long.
There have been a small but loud handful of people saying some fairly nasty things about me that are not true. Leading this charge was someone named Faith McClosky. It is important for you to know that Faith McClosky does not exist. “Faith” isn’t a lesbian female planning to adopt children in November. She’s not a nurse. She didn’t attend college in Tennessee. Her background on the net is a web of lies aimed at deceiving people. She isn’t a she. In reality, this is an account of a middle-aged man who I will refer to simply as J going forward.
He worked at big box retailer in a small Pennsylvania town who lives in his grandfather’s house. This person is a criminal who pleaded guilty to issuing Terroristic Threats with intent to terrorize another, and Harassment in a Pennsylvania court in 2020. He’s banned at his former place of employment. This is a matter of public record.
J has been misleading the BattleTech community for several years, pretending to be a young female fan, both as Faith McClosky and as Faith McCarron. Most recently, he has been hiding behind this fake identity to spread damaging lies and falsehoods about me and has made threats against my life, which I take seriously.
For months, this person has been personally contacting people and going on multiple online forums and sites spewing fabricated lies about me. This has been well documented by the authorities and thanks to fans who shared with me some of the hate that he has generated. I have remained quiet on these matters to allow law enforcement and my legal team to do their jobs. That time has come to an end.
If you believed anything this person posted, remember this, the person you have been reading posts from doesn’t exist. He has distorted reality about me to fit a woke agenda of censorship and pushing the cancel culture. Consider this: If this person lied about who they are, in a very welcoming and diverse fan community, how can you believe anything this person posted regarding me?
Let’s go back to the start of this. The reality is that this person has been relentlessly following me online for almost two years. I gave up trying to reason with ‘her’ and blocked this person on Twitter and eventually Facebook. “Faith” became upset at one of my social media posts and, along with another conspirator, contacted Catalyst Game Labs, and attempted to get my books pulled and have me removed from the lineup as an author. They made outrageous accusations about me, which Catalyst refuted in detail. Catalyst even reviewed a year’s worth of my social media to validate that I had not crossed any of the lines that “Faith” claimed I had.
I blocked this individual and several others during this period because I refuse to let them use my social media platforms to post their hate about me. Keep in mind, at any point, J and his minions could have simply stopped following me.
When my new political thriller novel Blue Dawn was announced “Faith” contacted a fellow author on 26 March 2021 and sent the following:
“I want to fucking shoot him in the fucking crotch for this shit.”
And: “I’m sorry. I want him to die in a fire.”
“Faith” claimed: “It’s a condemnation of everything I believe in. It’s a condemnation of my family and my livelihood.”
When asked “In what way?” this was the response: “In what way? I am a lesbian. I am a lesbian who is welcoming a child into this world. This backing of a radical conservative viewpoint is a repudiation of my entire existence.” All of this was thankfully forwarded to me.
Keep in mind, this book was not in print at this time. In other words, this person was, in their head, creating plots and theories about the story without having read it!
Yes, representatives of the woke/cancel culture attempted to not only erase me, and having failed that, threatened my life.
Blue Dawn is a novel published by Defiance Press that I proudly authored. It is about the violent progressive overthrow of the government and the men and women that rise up and fight against it. It covers the start of a second American Civil War set five years from now. It is a piece of alternate history. It is a solid action novel, a political thriller, aimed at conservative readers, one written to get you to question the values of both sides of such a conflict. Much of the book is based on real-world events and people. It will spark discussion and debate when it is fully released at the end of July. Good fiction can do that. Good fiction should do that. There is a vast difference between discourse and threats/defamation.
I evaluated this threat with a professional in the field and contacted law enforcement. My wife and I drilled as to what to do if ‘Faith’ ever appeared at our house. For the first time in my life, I kept guns loaded and ready at egress points. This generated considerable stress and angst, as well as loss productivity in our household. Despite these and other security measures, my wife and I still feel threatened.
This person continued to barrage my blog and send emails all of an inflammatory nature. I was accused of being many things, and of having many views that I simply do not have, never considered, or are completely contrary to my beliefs. I did not reply to any of these. This person claimed there were hidden messages in my novels espousing views he/she didn’t agree with. I will not go into these specific and horrific accusations because to do so would only give them a hint of legitimacy. Many are outright ludicrous, the product of hate. Besides, I don’t have anything to prove or disprove…I’m the victim of this story.
Law enforcement attempted to locate “Faith” but her identity online did not match reality. Eventually they derived the person’s true identity, which was validated by several means. This took months. In the meantime, I was sent threatening videos, and experienced additional threats from this person on social media and via email. I also learned their history of legal troubles, both civil and criminal.
In response to multiple threats, I retained a top-notch legal team and secured a temporary PPO, Virginia’s equivalent of a restraining order. A cease and desist letter was served to J demanding him to remove his inflammatory online comments and a specific lengthy blog post that was filled with lies and distorted mistruths about me. Other legal actions were prepared as well.
This person has been making outlandish and unsupported claims about me that were designed to harm my livelihood. It was a full-fledged campaign. This person attempted to purge me from BattleTech as an author, trying to force CGL to break legal contracts. This person issued threats, veiled and direct, against me. This person sent threatening videos to me, apparently to attempt to intimidate me. This person lied about their true identity. This person sent inflammatory comments to my publisher Defiance Press. He posted nasty reviews of my work. This individual went on Facebook and other forums and attempted to incite fans against me, to the point of getting temporary suspensions. He contacted podcasters and demanded they take down their episodes with me in them and no longer have me as a guest. He sparred with the fans of the franchise and professional colleagues who supported me, attempting to intimidate them. This individual sullied my name and reputation.
J, and the people that encouraged him, haven’t helped the BattleTech community at all. What they have done has been unhealthy to the fan base. In fairness, they were following a criminal who misled them. Sadly, I am sure some of them will continue to carry that banner. To them, I say: While most of you thought you were flirting with some 20 year old pretty professional female; you were duped and misled from the very beginning. Welcome to the BattleTech episode of Catfish; I’m Blaine Pardoe filling in for Nev.
It’s tempting to speculate as to his motives but I won’t. His motivations driving this bizarre behavior are merely window dressing for the accusations and threats themselves. What I can say with assurance is that this was the cancel culture at its worst. J, and those misled by him, were upset over a book that none of them have even read.
As a result of all of this, I now have a Permanent Protective Order in place with this individual banning them from direct or indirect contact with me. Under advice of counsel, cannot comment on other aspects of this matter nor on what law enforcement is currently doing regarding this case. I have done what is necessary to protect my wife, my dog, my home, and my life. I have a legitimate fear for our safety confirmed by experts in the field, a judge, and law enforcement. I took these actions not just for myself, but to protect fans as well, those that might be at an event or book signing where I appear in public.
Both of my current publishers, Catalyst Game Labs and Defiance Press have been supportive during this ordeal. I endeavored to keep both of them apprised as events unfolded. I will not speak to what actions they may take as a result of these matters and revelations.
To be clear, everything I have done has been done in reaction to the multiple threats and defaming comments made against me. I feel horrible that this person instigated this entire affair and has pulled in others with his deception. I hope that his actions won’t deter real women from writing for BattleTech. I also hope this does not taint anyone’s opinions of the LGBTQ+ community. It is sad that J chose to drag their cause into his hate-filled dialogue. I have close family members in that community who were stunned about this misrepresentation of their constituency. I am not sure where he got the photos of the female that J pretended to be, but I am sure she would be shocked that someone was misusing her image in this manner.
Why respond at all? Simply put, some of you attributed my silence as an admission of guilt – it was not. Legal actions take time to play out. To those who opt to continue with these kinds of online attacks, I want to be very clear – I will take the necessary legal actions to protect my reputation and these can be costly and time consuming for you. I suggest you all use this opportunity to ratchet down your politically motivated venom. You’ve had your ‘fun,” at my expense so far, but know that going forward you are playing adult games with adult prizes.
Some “fans” have posted that I shouldn’t be allowed to write a book like Blue Dawn…that I am the root cause of this. Let me be clear. No one deserves to be threatened and harassed at the level I and my family have been simply because someone disagrees with their political ideology. None of you get to determine what I can or cannot write. That is censorship. You do not get to choose what genre’s I opt to choose to practice my craft in. I have worked hard in my career to be in a position to write whatever I want, whenever I desire. The fact that you might think you get a voice in what I do stands against the freedoms I both possess and cherish.
I invite you to share this link with your fellow fans, I don’t want to violate any rules regarding posting politics on social media forums. I encourage you to share it with your friends as well. I believe that this is a tale well worth sharing.
Finally, this was never about fictional characters or fanciful high-tech plots; this is about silencing an author because of their politics, plain and simple. While I feel physically threatened, I will not concede my values. I will not be broken by self-appointed social justice warriors. I have taken my stand, drawn my line in the proverbial sand. I would hope that you would be respectful as my wife and I adapt to this and process much of what has unfolded. If you are facing these same pressures, I hope that this post helps you, even in some small way. I further would hope that, with these revelations, this matter can be put to rest